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Do I regret growing old?
Old Age, I have decided,
is a gift.
I am now, probably for the first time in my life,
the person I have always wanted to be. Oh, not my
body! I sometimes despair over my body, the wrinkles,
the baggy eyes, and the sagging gut, the loss of
hair, and the false teeth. And often I am taken
aback by that old person that lives in my mirror
(who looks just like my father!), but I don't
agonize over those things for long.
I would never trade my wonderful wife, my amazing
friends, my wonderful broadcasting career and loving
family for less gray hair or a flatter belly. As
I've aged, I've become more kind to myself, and less
critical of myself. I've become my own friend.
I don't chide myself for eating that extra homemade
peanut butter and chocolate cookie, or for not
making my bed, or for buying that Harley-Davidson
Road King motorcycle. I am entitled to a treat, to
be messy, to be extravagant.
I have seen too many dear friends leave this world
too soon; before they understood the great freedom
that comes with aging. I have, because of reunions,
seen the same young men and women I worked in Radio
& TV with in the 60’s, 70’s, & 80's, have grown
older at the same pace as I. Thanks to the
internet, I have been able to re-connect with many
of the men I served with in Vietnam and also made it
home....and they too, have grown older.
Say, whose business is it if I choose to play on the
computer until 2 AM and sleep until 9 AM?
I will continue trying to be my wife's best friend -
she sure is my best friend. I will
continue to sing (out of tune) to those
wonderful tunes of the 50’s & 60's. I will
continue to attend the monthly H.O.G., VFW,
SAAPA, and CAP meetings.
I will continue harassing the dogs. I will
continue to never wear
socks. I will continue uplinking satellite signals
to space - a job I really love.
I will walk the beach in a swim suit that is
stretched over a bulging body, and will dive into
the waves with abandon if I choose to, despite the
pitying glances from the jet set. They, too, will
get old.
I know I am sometimes forgetful. But there again,
some of life is just as well forgotten. And I
eventually remember the important things.
Sure, over the years my heart has been broken. How
can your heart not break when you lose a loved one
or even when somebody's beloved pet dies? But broken
hearts are what give us strength and understanding
and compassion. A heart never broken is pristine and
sterile and will never know the joy of being
imperfect.
I am so blessed to have lived long enough to have my
hair turning gray (and falling out), and to have my
youthful laughs be forever etched into deep grooves
on my face. So many have never laughed, and so many
have died before their hair could turn gray.
As you get older, it is easier to be positive. You
care less about what other people think. I don't
question myself anymore. I've even earned the right
to be wrong.
So, to answer your question:
I like being old. It has
set me free. I like the person I have become. I am
not going to live forever, but while I am still
here, I will not waste time lamenting what could
have been, or worrying about what will be. And I
shall eat those homemade peanut butter & chocolate
cookies every single day. (If I feel like it - and
my wife will keep making them)
Work like you don't need
the money...
Love like nobody has ever
hurt you...
Dance like nobody is
watching...
Sing like nobody is
listening...
Live as if this was
paradise on Earth...
The
Florida Dude |